27 December 2023

On bake















Perfect fucking pizza
The dough was bubbly, moist
The heat of the oven, just right
(On bake, not grill like another time it didn’t go so well)

It left the pan smoothly, nothing sticking
(Unlike the time of the grill)
The toppings juicy, spicy, a bit of crunch
Melted cheese and chewy crust

Ahhh


[27 December 2023]

24 December 2023

Hot breath

Our lips brush
Soft flesh
Hot breath

A hurried whisper
In your ear
An escape window

I might bring to you
A moment joy
A period of pain

Complications
And confusion

There’s no happy ever after
Just a moment in our lives


[01 September 2019]

A quiet silence

The computer off
A quiet silence
Of little boys not here
Gone

Some Lego
Fragments on the floor
The clock in the kitchen
Ticks on


[13 January 2022]

No traces

Last night
You were there
With me, in my dream
Your eyes, and your smile
Your tumble of hair

We sat together
We talked, and we walked
So easy, so real

This morning
You felt close
As I woke, from my dream
But no traces of you
Not here, not at all

The feeling remained
As if we’d just been together
And the dream had been real


[15 January 2023]

Returning to my kitchen

On Sunday
I started to read your “Some stories”
But stopped
I didn’t want to just read it
I wanted to savour it, immerse myself in the world created by your words
Later I listened to you reading it
But stopped, again

On Monday
I put it on while I was cooking and listened
Not so immersed as I’d intended, but by then it seemed quite intellectual, thoughtful
I followed along
At a distance
Until

“There was a moment…”

Suddenly
I’m wrenched from my distance
Thrown directly into it
My hands and face on the gravel, rough and scratchy
My throat hoarse with rage and grief

But also departed, aloft, free
The world spread out below me, no longer binding me

But also sitting in the burgundy car, watching the landscape roll by
Stunned and confused by the raw outpouring

Returning to my kitchen
I'm shattered
Fragmented and yet not
Somehow all one, all at once


[23 February 2023]

Link to "Some stories...".

10 January 2023

Cycling


It’s like fucking zen meditation
Get on the seat

Feel
All the pain
In all the parts of my body
Complaining

Adjust to get comfortable
It still hurts

Settle back on the seat
Feel
Where it still hurts

Keep going, breathe
Keep going, breathe

Stand with shaky legs
Breathe


[08 November 2022]